In a world addicted to speed, I blur the moments into one unholy smear.
(One Thousand Gifts, Ann Voskamp, p.66)
I have the tendency to do that…blur moment gifts into one unholy, unappreciated smear. In the end it leaves me ungrateful & in turn steals the joy in life. I have to be incredibly intentional about slowing down…taking the time to really see life around me…recognizing each individual holy moment.
Many days, I do that through the lens of my iPhone camera. It forces me to stop & see. This past Thanksgiving weekend I took plenty of time to slow life down. My friend Alece challenged us to create a “wall of thanks” (see post it pictures below :)). My dear friend Emory & I enjoyed a “staycation” complete with slow lazy mornings, plenty of naps, several movies, a leisurely walk, lots of chocolate, and of course a Friends marathon :) It was truly a weekend of recognizing & savoring the moments. And for that, I am grateful.
I’ve understandably been having countless conversations lately about what’s next in life. People always ask “how are you doing with the transition?” And the majority of them are shocked when I say, “I’m wonderful!” And usually kindly demand an explanation. It honestly makes me a bit sad that people are so surprised to hear someone genuinely say they’re doing well.
My explanation is really quite simple and most of the time doesn’t seem to satisfy them. They think there has to be more to the story…something I’m not telling them. The popular speculation lately has been that I’ve got some secret wedding I’m planning. Like the only way I could possibly be filled with such joy right now was if I was “in love”
To set the record straight: I am not planning a secret wedding or anywhere remotely close to it! But, I am “in love.” I am in love with a God who created me and loves me and daily provides for me. A God who gave up the Son whom He loved because of His great love for me (and you). That fact right there makes me stop and smile. When I really stop and think about it that puts everything into perspective and joy naturally flows from that.
God in His grace is blessing me with an incredible and really unexplainable sense of peace and joy during this transition phase of life. I’ve been waiting (and still am) for that freak out moment to come. But it hasn’t…yet. The best part is: it’s completely against my nature. I’m not a risk-taker. I’m always very cautious. I like to be in control. By all human standards I should be freaking out right now…big time! But I’m not. And that means it’s all God and He gets every bit of the glory!
This song came on random shuffle on my iphone this morning:
“And the arms that hold the universe
Are holding you tonight
You can rest inside
It’s gonna be alright
And the voice that calmed the raging sea
Is calling you His child
So be still and know He’s in control
He will never let you go”
(Arms That Hold the Universe by Fee)
Stop and think about that for a minute. The God who created the amazing universe you see at the top of this post created and knows you. There’s no need to worry. He’s got this. Go on, be joyful, live life.